Dio è il mio forza †

Tell me your woes

2012-02-06T12:08:00.001-08:00

"Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit and you just pull the scar off it over and over again "-Rosa Parks

I won't allow hurt to reduce me into a state of vulnerability I was before .

Running wild

2012-02-04T00:01:00.000-08:00

~~Woke up~~
Jump out of bed and prepare before rushing out of the house because I'm late for my appointment .
My friend was nice enough to tell me to take my time (Love you flo !)
I manage to reach Nex without letting her wait for a long time !
Had pepper lunch and had this long H2H talk with her before heading to marina .
Walked around before going to Suntec to wait for the rest to come and find us .
In the meanwhile I started camwhoring ^^

I've loads of epic faces .
Walked around after my friends arrive and when we finally got bored of the place ...
My friend called his friend to drive us to go Lau pa sat , so when we were waiting at near Esplanade we manage to catch the fireworks from Chingay , brings so much memories of when I participated in Chingay last year .
Head to Lau pa sat for supper .
Yummmmmmzxc .

Plus sotong and satay ~
Ending this post with a picture of me .
Going to change contact lens soon , can't wait ~

Although I was still quite upset but I want to thank you guys for cheering me up .

Follow me on twitter @P_Cattitude

Eye opening .

2012-02-02T10:53:00.000-08:00

Woke up around 2 in the afternoon , checked my phone and saw that Jessica called many times .
Called back and plan to meet at BPP .
Waited for quite long before she came due to something that crop up .
That cute girl thought that I left already since I couldn't contact her due to her prepaid being low .
When she knew that I was there she was damn relieved .
Left BPP and accompany her to get her inked .
Reached the tattoo shop around 5 .
Was quite late because we couldn't find the shop and ended up walking around the shopping centre like some fools .
Finally found the shop and Jess asked the price , choose what design to get inked and etc .
Its a Thai spiritual tattoo done with prayers .
The tattoo is injected into the skin by a long metal spike instead of the normal handheld electric instrument as shown in the picture below .

W/o flash .
The name of this tattoo is " Gao yord "
The nine spirals have different meanings , like for protection & etc .
With flash .
After the tattoo was done we left and head to Bugis to find Jojo .
When we finally reach Bugis , me and Jess was so hungry that we got those sinfully delicious oily and fried food .
Jessica was quite shag because she finished her cigg so when she smoked Jojo cigg she immediately started hypering .
She was so hyper till she was like , omg why the bag so cuteeee and I was like ... why are you so cute ?
Does it look good ?
I bought myself a leopard prints flats while Jess got herself a leopard prints shoe .
Accompany Jojo and left around 10-11plus .
Left the place running like crazy because me , Jess , JoJo and Miaomiao got chased by this lil kiddo Jeremy Yap who keep aiming paper balls at us .
Reached BP and meet this idiot .
Slacked and went to Kim san leng there because Jess is hungry .
Left and went Jess house .
See this HUGE teddy bear ? Now spot the idiot hugging the bear .
The picture below shows explicit violence .
Jess started using the huge teddy to whack the idiot .
This is worse than pillow fight .......
The winner goes to :
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JESSICA ! Total ownage .
After we finish whacking , we realised ...
The teddy's fur is everywhere .
Its like the teddy is some cancer stricken patient that loses hair .
End up ton at Jessica house with the idiot .

Time pass but memories stay

2012-01-29T00:43:00.000-08:00

This post is in regards to a question asked by someone @ my formspring .
Who wanted to know why I was still thinking about him .

Think of it this way .
Looking back at a memory and thinking I was so happy .
What happened ? Why did things changed ?
Its not that I love him like before or anything , its just a thought .
There is guilt , guilt that I choose to leave .
That it wasn't strong enough to make both of us to put our pride away .
That this love wasn't strong enough to make me stay .

Hope I answered your question .

Lipzstizk

2012-01-25T21:22:00.001-08:00

Look at all the scratches on it , I need to get a new lipstick .
I lost my Revlon lipstick AGAIN .
My samsung earpiece and jacket just can't be found too .
Its really bothering me on how i can lose my things so easily .
Just like when I was young I lost my camera and etc .

Revlon ah Revlon , where are you ?!

auto da fé

2012-01-25T09:53:00.000-08:00

Going to update on what I was doing last week .
1) Went shopping but nothing caught my eye .
2) Lazed at home .
3) Went out with friends .
4) Got a haircut recently , which ended with my fringe being really really short .
Quite heartpain since it was so long before I got it cut .

That was basically how I spend my days away .
Not to mention the fact that I really need t get a job seriously .
Anyone got job t intro me ?

Valentine's day is coming soon .
Hope people out there have a lovely time .

Valentine's day with you .
Those memories are old yet they are fresh in my mind and they hurt .
Sometimes I look back and thought about it .
If I didn't give up on you , where will we be now ? will we still be together ?

Another round of drinks

2012-01-23T09:41:00.000-08:00

I'm posting not according t the date .
Meetup w Mason at Teckwhye Mac recently .
Head to a nearby shop as we wanted t drink quite badly .
While drinking we waited for Shavon t come before going to the Pasar Malam t get food .
Being the pig we're we even went t get food the second round .
Left the coffee shop after we're done .
As we were walking to Phoenix , Mason was sort of having a slight limp due t his injured toe .
He wore his Converse leather shoes despite being in pain and giving me a funny reason like :
Shoes wear jean than compatible , wear slipper damn ugly .
He was breaking into sweats due to the pain , such is the high cost of beauty .
Ended up wearing one side of his shoe and with him wearing one side of my Abercrombie slipper . He even became super hyper after being relieved from the pain .
My Abercrombie and Fitch slipper , which Mason wore .
He was the first and only person other than me to wear my slipper .
I've got to say I really love his leather Converse shoe .
It looks so good , it made me want to even get a pair .
Was drinking again at a block near Phoenix .
Took this photo as Shavon requested and I almost forgot that I had it .
Slacked and talked about all sorts of things before heading home .

Happy Chinese New Year Eve !

2012-01-22T09:44:00.000-08:00

Hey guys , Happy Chinese New Year Eve !
Was working on the eve and caught the movie Viral Factor after that .
Apparently Nicholas Tse was acting in it and I'm a fan of his so I was dead set on watching it .
The movie was still quite okay and etc .
I think it was around this week that I also caught the movie "We not naughty"
I found it really funny .
Slacked with Jiawei and Kaisheng after the movie .
Too bad I can't find the picture with the tickets \:
So enough with my rubbish about movies I hope that everyone is enjoying themselves and having a happy time w their family !

P/s : Will continue t update when I've time .

Look beyond the surface

2012-01-17T08:23:00.000-08:00

It's easy to look at people and make quick judgments about them , their present and their past but you will be amazed at the pain and tears a single smile hides . What a person shows to the world is only one tiny facet of the iceberg hidden from sight . And more often then not , it's lined with cracks and scars that go all the way to the foundation of their soul .”

Yknow what ? I miss being a kid . No one cared how you dressed , we were all friends and you could be yourself . When did we turn so judgmental ?

BOO ! Its Drama camp .

2012-01-12T08:27:00.000-08:00

Did I scare all you lil kids away ?
27 Dec : Super late update .
Went back for drama camp to help Shanxian with the night hunt as there wasn't enough people .
Needless to say I did enjoy myself and it was not my first time with such "scary" makeup .
Meet Louis in the afternoon but wasn't feeling well and I went home first .
Meet up with him in the evening and he helped me with various of stuff like prayers for the night hunt .
With Killer Clown @ Jingjie .
With Crazy Pontianak @ Afiq
With some Nurse look alike/ My caretaker @ Sarah
With Screamo @ Khalid .
With Crazy mental patient @ Hema
This was apparently my station for the night with Sarah " My caretaker "
Apparently the people playing the games have to go through stations .
For mine they have to chant my name 10 times to revive me when I'm lying down in the circle of candles while Sarah is weeping at my "Dead" body .
Sarah and I was quite spooked by that place to make it worse I had some history with it in the past .
The flames of the candles was blown off when there is no wind , some was gone suddenly and etc .
This picture is when the we finish our night hunt and a few of us are just slacking .
Went and wash up after the game and Huda realised she has scratches all over our body and we were all spooked .
Left with Hema and Sarah and cab home .
28 Dec : 2nd day of drama camp .
Went at night for the BBQ and slacked at some void deck and drank .
With Shavon and Mason .
With Mason , who jio me out to drink again tomorrow .
Its hard to resist temptations like these \:
Shavon , who still look so pretty even though she was quite seh and was lying on our bag .
There was even Whiskey which Hongping brought .
Cab home with Vonnie after everything end .

Where did I go wrong ?

2012-01-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

"When you love someone , truly love them be it friend or lover , you lay your heart open to them .
You give them a part of yourself that you give to no one else .
You let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt you .
You literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on your heart and soul and when they do strike , it's crippling like having your heart carved out .
It leaves you naked and exposed , wondering what you did to make them want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them . "

UPDATES !

2012-01-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

Updating on how I spend the day before Christmas eve , Christmas eve & Christmas .
Gerald's Botak Head .
Haha , went and find this botak the day before Chirstmas eve when he booked out .
Keep laughing when i saw him botak , yes i was a total ass .
Slacked and went home to get enough sleep for Christmas eve .
Christmas eve !
Woke up quite early before that t find my Dearest ! Its been ages since i saw him .
Then rushed to Causeway to catch Mission impossible 4 : Ghost protocol with Sebin !
Was quite guilty since I was late and Sebin was so nice he didn't rush or nag me and he even paid for my ticket .
The movie was good , i've alr watched it 3 times since then haha !
Went to makan after the movie .
Haha snap this picture of him looking so seductive when he tried to pose by winking while I took the picture . But his wink CMI , failed ~
Left after that to meet Xiaobai , who came back from Vietnam and got me a lighter .
After awhile Joey came to find me so we slacked together and had dinner at KFC and went to church after that .
Likeaholymuch ? (:
Cute ?
Ours is not to do or die , ours is to smoke and stay high .
But since Joey like it I gave it to him .
Ain't the deco pretty ?
Joey with a huge plaster to cover up a small little pimple and ended up looking adorable .
Me and Joey .
Joey left after awhile while I remained at Cityhall and countdown to Christmas w Estelle and friends at Carls Junior .
Went to friend house to ton after that .
Christmas !
Watch movie w M'Dearest , Alvin and the chipmunks 3 !
It was touching and cute .
Me and My sister ! Pretty or not ?
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Okay joke ! Thats my Mum !
Guess where am I ?
Went to Fisherman's market @ Clarkequay to have buffet dinner .
I like this , haha childhood .
BALL BALL WORH ~
There were even bubbles although they were pretty but the floor was so slippery till i almost fall -___- like wtf imagine if i did .
Love the lightings !
Went back to Panjang to meet Xiaobai , Gerald and Xinyi !

Loathe reality

2011-12-19T04:44:00.000-08:00

Edited - I wish the ground would just open up and swallow me whole . I've been feeling frustrated , pissed and with the additional pent up anger I'm afraid I might snap and nothing I do seems to be helping .

Weary to the bones

2011-12-06T12:37:00.000-08:00

Tired .
Irritated .
Shag .
I'm bone weary and I love to whine .

Dedicated t Gerald

2011-12-05T03:34:00.000-08:00

To start of this post with a happy note :
Recently went to Gerald house & he cooked for me !
Guys that cooked , quite seldom hmm .
Its just maggie mee but its pretty amazing since I can't cook , not even maggie mee .
His " Ai xin mian " as we called it .
He kept reminding me that I'm the second girl he cooked for & its damn rare & i should be honoured and etc , which I'm .

Basically I spend these few days in a way that if i'm not working then i'm slacking off .
It feels pretty good .

Would you ?

2011-11-30T17:00:00.000-08:00

If I happen to walk away from everything ,
just forget everything and leave it all behind & never to come back would you be okay with that ?

Camwhore

2011-11-29T10:30:00.002-08:00

Had my off day .
Meet Xiaohui for lunch @ ajisen & was super full .
Walked around and slacked .

Went home for awhile before heading off to meet Gerald .
Ended up going to Harshini house & waited for Gerald to arrive .
Walked to Fajar to get supper @ mac , fat die us felt 3kg heavier ever since then haha !
Headed to Gerald house to charge my phone since my battery was dying .
In the mean time while waiting for it to charge we ...
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CAMWHORE ! with his webcam , boredom makes me do crazy things !

Went & find boon before heading home in the wee hours of the morning .
Just answered questions @ my formspring .

2011-11-28T04:23:00.000-08:00

I'm on leave (:

Missing puzzle piece

2011-11-24T05:18:00.000-08:00

I'm not as stronger as what I thought .
The most difficult phase of my life , its not when no one understands me , it's when I don't understand myself .
I should be afraid , shouldn't I ? But I'm not .
All the doubts thats running through my head , swirling about .
It happens so often , it has became my constant companion .
Clarity about myself is something that I don't have much often .
Its odd how its comforting , comforting that though I don't understand myself I've still came to accept it .
Maybe I didn't accept it ,
Maybe i've gotten used to it ,
Maybe while I'm trying understand myself I lost the willpower to do so ,
Maybe all my thoughts are so forbidding that my mind refuses to accept it .
Or maybe , just maybe I don't want to understand myself anymore .

I'm not heartless , I just learn t use my heart less .

2011-11-14T06:48:00.000-08:00

Have been occupied with work .
Took off most days , play pool , watched movie and lepak .
10/11/11 :
Watched 23:59 with Xiaohui , Bryan , Wallace , Shawn , Leonard & Clement .
Caught Wallace using one had t cover one of his eye !
He was scared while i was laughing .
The movie was scary at certain parts however their plot was a little ironic .
Made Wallace laughed when I explain th irony of the movie .
Ended up laughing till the end of the movie .

On th 11/11/11 .
Played pool .
Catched the movie Sleep walker with Xiaohui , Wallace & Shawn .
This movie wasn't as good as 23:59
I think i kinda wasted my time watching it .
Walked all around town .
Ate at Xin Wang Cafe , the service was bad , the food came too slow , bad attitude and over-rated food price for such lousy stuff .
Slacked , went to Scape , Cine & 313 .
Enjoy my day .
@ Clarke Quay slacking .
@Xiaohui , awesome girl .
Took this picture today .
Everyone is getting ready for the festive season christmas !
I love the christmas-sy feeling !
The bible verse on top says : "He has made everything beautiful in its time" but it got me thinking .
Where is the beauty in life ? I might look happy but I'm not .
I have my issues but i face them head on is there any so called beauty in that ?
Or does having issues become the "in" thing & suddenly its appealing ? I doubt so .
Do enlighten me on this .

Birthday celebration

2011-11-01T15:45:00.001-07:00

Celebrated my birthday recently .
Received presents even before my birthday
Was quite touched that my friends remember my birthday even after so long .
Friend who text me before boarding the plane to Taiwan .
Others called me to wish me happy birthday .
One awesome girl who wished me in so many other languages .
People who made the effort to be the first to wish me

Places i went t celebrate my birthday : Panjang , Plaza Sing , Friend house , Nex , Clarke Quay & Orchard .
I walked from Orchard to Clarke Quay with awesome people .
First time doing such stuff , my "virgin" experience .

Yes , I never really did express how thankful I'm to have such nice friends .
I'm really fortunate enough that so many people wished me & celebrated with me .
Thanks guys , for the effort that you all put in and well thankyou for everything .

I made a wish & that is to have happiness .

Photo updates

2011-10-26T11:55:00.000-07:00

Things have been going smoothly for me but somehow it feels like something is missing .
Maybe I'm looking for something , Happiness ? Its been a long time since I've truly felt happy .
I'm afraid i might have forget how it feels like t be happy , the intense joy .
Its human nature to seek for something better , to change be it for better or for worse .
For now everything is smoothsailing & going my way .

In pain , I smile .
In confusion , I understand .
In betrayal , I trust.
And in fear, I continue to fight.

Day off

2011-10-24T16:13:00.000-07:00

Didn't update my blog as I was working .
I'm currently working at Grand Hyatt .
It can get pretty stressful at times especially when there is wedding or events going on but still I've to admit I did enjoy my time there .
After working non stop I decided to take 3 days off , Its sort of like a self declared holiday/rest day for me .

I'm going out with Xiaohui , bring more friends for interview & at the same time get our pay .
I'll update my blog whenever I've the time !

Day out w Xinyi & Gerald

2011-10-12T10:33:00.000-07:00

Meet Xinyi & Gerald today .
They accompanied me to Bangkit so that I can find the chord shoe that I needed so badly .
While we were on the way we saw this super fat cat .

Isn't it huge ?
So i said : Look , what a fat cat .
Gerald : Its not fat its pregnant !
Me : But its still fat what ...
Gerald : No ! Its not fat , its pregnant !
Me : Its fat !!
So we the two morons spend about 10 minutes arguing about the cat while Xinyi was texting like mad .
But still it was funny .
Bought my Chord shoe !
This is a really unglam picture , my legs look so unflattering .
I got this shoe for working purposes however this shoe just reminds me of old working people .
Feel so old just by wearing it .
Headed to 163 to get dinner .

This sweetie kept following us around .

Slacked , Peaceout ~

2011-10-08T13:17:00.000-07:00

Saw this on tumblr , it has almost the same lines as what my blog had written .

Photos

2011-10-06T20:34:00.001-07:00

Just t keep my blog alive .

Turmoil

2011-10-04T12:29:00.000-07:00

To the God that listens :
If you are listening to my prayers know that I'm tired of trying to hang on .
The temptation to give up is so overpowering but I know that if I do , I will come to regret it in time.
So please give me the strength to pull through .
Let me have the will to carry on .
If you hear my cries and earnest pleas just know that sometimes , at times it feels like I'm might succumb into temptation .
In this period of time , I need you more than ever .

I give up .

Time is slipping away .

2011-09-23T10:20:00.000-07:00

Didn't do anything productive today .
Had this sudden craving for chocolates .
When I have craving for chocolates it just means that I'm downright depressed .
Which is not surprising since my N levels are approaching .
The fact that I'm feeling the stress and not doing anything about it is worrying .
I need to start studying before its too late , hope motivation hits me in the face as soon as possible .

Putting that aside , Dawn is so sweet to me ! http://www.facebook.com/#!/xiiao.tong/posts/2170305773439
If you're my facebook friend you will be able t see what this sweet girl posted for me .
If not add me up if you're interested t see .
I'm going t keep this link here since she's so cute , this sweet girl even bought stuff for me .
I'll upload the pictures once I get them .

Picture of me and Gerald while we were slacking during 23456789876543 ago .
Just realised that he have "Gek Sai Bin" or Constipated face expression going on .
Its so laugh worthy that I uploaded it .
Need to meet up with them soon .

Follow / Ask me questions @ formspring .

Formspring

2011-09-21T08:36:00.000-07:00

Ask / Follow me @ formspring .
Instead of my usual tagboard i'm using formspring now .
As I recently created it i'm still trying t figure my way around things so bear w me .

Good old times .

2011-09-20T08:31:00.000-07:00

Met up with Winston and Harshini .
Didn't manage t take any pictures .
But still I'm glad that even with their hectic schedule and everything we made time for each other .
Had some serious H2H talk while slacking , head home after that .

Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to .
Though that doesn’t mean that we’ve stopped loving them or we’ve stopped to care .
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you .

Northpoint .

2011-09-17T13:11:00.000-07:00

Didn't have any comfirmed plans to go out yet I still head down to Lot One and slacked for awhile before rushing to Yishun .
Went to NorthPoint to look for Raymond and slacked w his friend Cherylin @ her work place .

Poor sheep , haha !
Cherylin sitting on the Panda & Raymond on the Sheep .
Left around 8plus .
Rushed to Panjang to meet Gerald , I was late for about 2hours . Mad guilty .
After that went and find Xinyee and friend slacked with Weihong and Gerald after Xinyee left .
Took my supper with them and some uninvited guests ( cockroach )
Had some really epic moments at that point .
After we finished our supper we went and walked Zhenghua Park it was torturing but at least I get t burn some fats .
Headed to CC and took pictures with Gerald .

Shag faces .
Slacked for awhile more before heading home .